I have a long history as a list-maker. I would make lists of things I wanted to accomplish, which would be followed by a schedule that no sane person could keep up with. Invariably after a few weeks, the schedules would be tossed out and a dismal feeling of failure would engulf me. I was basically setting myself up to fail. And it was all a part of being afraid to succeed. That may sound ass backwards, but that’s how it was.
Since moving to New Mexico I have stayed away from schedules. But recently I have felt that I needed to start naming things: my feelings, my passions, my desires, my goals – and begin to takes action about realizing them. I live in my head way too much. So I spent a good bit of money and bought this AWESOME planner by Tools4Wisdom. And it is really fab!!!
It contains October, November, and December of 2016, and all of 2017. It has sections to write general goals, weekly goals, appointments, priorities, and notes and ideas as they come. At first I was a bit overwhelmed with its size and how many things I was being asked to write, but last night before bed I began”the work” and started writing in it.
I am committed to practicing with it every night, setting up the next day, and being kind to my reluctant and procrastinating self. Sometimes coming out and naming things can have a very motivating effect. You begin to see that your wants are not always your deepest desires and passions. I have learned in all my years on the planet in this human experience, that there is a big difference between wanting and needing. And, while I want a shitload of stuff, my real needs are very basic, and lots more profound.
I am thrilled with my new planner and feel that it is really going to help me figure some things out. I have always worked on myself, but this will get me out of my head and more productive. I am clearly ready for this new challenge else I would not have spent the money and delved right in. And I might not have written this post. Yay!!!